Category: acceptance

Devotional

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, God, humble

April 19 2025

Maundy Thursday

Psalm 94 Verse 7

 7 They say, “The Lord does not see;
    the God of Jacob takes no notice.”

This is the beginning of the end…. the day when Jesus eats with his disciples and tells them goodbye. The day when the disciples begin to realize that Jesus is not the person they thought he was. This kind of end is not what they expected. God is not becoming an earthly king… a person of earthly power. God, in heaven, seems not to care.

Yet… Jesus knows that something more important is about to happen. God’s plan is grander than anyone can imagine.

It still is.

Prayer: O Holy God, your plan is beyond our understanding. Your wisdom is infinite. Help us to trust your love for us and out world. AMEN

Devotional

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, God, questioning

April 3 2025

Psalm 78 Verses
18 They willfully put God to the test
    by demanding the food they craved.
19 They spoke against God;
    they said, “Can God really
    spread a table in the wilderness?

“They willfully put God to the test”. They prayed to God but really doubted that God would answer. Sometimes it is hard to believe in anything. Life is so erratic. Chaos rules. There doesn’t seem to be an logic to anything. But it is God’s world and we will never understand until we see God face to face. When I do I have questions. Do you?

Prayer: Lord you have the answers and I have the questions. Please help me to live into the questions until I am ab le to understand the answers. AMEN

Just move on

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, belief, Discernment, discretion

Some things are a waste of time. One of my saved quotes says” Proof is useless unless it’s proof of something people already want to believe.” from the book “The mysterious Benedict Society

It is east to want to change someone’s mind when you have lots of proofs to prove them wrong. However this is a useless exercise. Those who are entrenched in their belief will not be swayed. The mindset is already on default. No amount of talk will help. The only way I have found myself getting out of this situation is to back away and say we are each entitled to our belief.

This is especially true is out momentary political climate. Don’t waste your time.

Ever Changing

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, aging, caring

I am so aware that every day is different. I frequently think about the song ” What a difference a day makes.” Life is ever changing and mine is no exception. After a difficult few weeks things are better and I am so glad. Living in this Independent Living Facility, which is wonderful has the downside of losing friends. I have lost ones who don’t life here but it is different with those I see every day.

It is hard but it is part of life and life is ever changing.

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, aging, change, coping

I have settled in here Independent Living and have learned a lot about what someone needs to know about taking this step in their life. One thing I know for sure is that I wouldn’t want to be living alone in the home I left. There are so many opportunities here for finding new friends and enjoying the activities.

Change is difficult but we experience it throughout our entire lives. Making a change like this can be hard but I find it worth it.

I am working on a book about this step in our lives. I have no name for it yet but think of it as Transitional Grief. That will change as the word grief causes so many negative responses. This will be a challenge but a great way to explore my own experience with the aim of helping others.

Generational acceptance

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, challenging, sadness

Sometimes it is hard to see the good. Sometimes the down side is so much more visible. I live in a wonderful place. I can want for nothing but I still feel disconnected. With a partner I had what I saw as a life of connections. Picked my own directions…did my own thing. I can still do that but I didn’t realize how disconnected I would feel from the lives of my family.

They were raised to find their own way…to make their own choices and they have done a wonderful job of that. But they frequently called with updates and questions. I knew about their lives. I was connected.

Now I am in a safe, prime environment and for some reason I have become disconnected. Is is me? Am I not functioning the way I used to?

I guess in some ways I was the matriarch. My home was still the center. Now that is gone. In some ways it is a relief to not have that role but I realize I miss it. Something else to absorb and learn to accept. It is the way of life. Each generation moves on and leaves room for the next.

keep going

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, feelings, healing, moving on

Here I am again having not written for a while. I don’t know what is wrong with me. These posts are my connection to others and I have to do better.

Recently I had a really bad episode of IBSD and it threw me into the most difficult panic I have had in a longtime. If I could just get past my unreasonable fear that stems from years ago I would get whatever I could do done and find something that will help this. Things that happened in the past really can come back to haunt us. I suffered for three months without edimy (then) doctor doing anything and when I finally got to the right person I was in the hospital for three weeks. This experience left me with unreasonable fear of repetition and brings on panic.

Years later I started this blog and it has helped me through a lot. I do so much better when I can express myself and push the problem away.

On the whole I am better but once in a while it comes to haunt me. Those times are less frequent and I know that the meditation, journaling, writing here and keeping busy have made a tremendous difference.

Not finding the right church has not helped but I will keep on trying.

I guess my thought for today is never give up. Just keep going.

Reflections on weird

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, community, strange

Let me preface this post by saying that Austin Texas has a motto “keep Austin weird.” This probably came about since Austin is a liberal place. My son-in-law calls it “An island of liberals in a sea of conservatives.”

I have spent the last few weeks changing my apartment around and I can’t believe how much better it is. It is not only looking better but is it is so much more efficient. Now everything has its place and I can keep it neat. How is it that we find myself hunting misplaced objects more in this small space that when I lived in a much bigger house? How weird is that?

The days are getting longer and I find it easier to get up in the morning. I am so dependent on light. I will hate it when the time changes this month and we go to daylight savings. It makes no sense to continue to do this.

I have heard several reasons about how this came to be one of them says it was for farmers. This makes no sense since farmers get up regardless of daylight.

Oh well, another of those interesting decisions that government did. Living here in Texas I am finding a lot of those things. I have learned that Texans really love their state, know it can be wrong, but are passionate about it no matter what and that is one way to “keep Austin weird.”

Where is everyone?

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, expectations, gratitude

Things have been crazy around here. The Independent Living place where I live just can’t get help and all the others are in the same boat. It is an interesting phenomenon. It seems that every place cannot find enough staff. Last evening the people in charge were working in the dining room. Everyone from the CEO down. Wait staff is impossible to get. People come for interviews but don’t want to work.

It is not just us. Everywhere I go people are advertising for workers. What baffles me is where are the people who were working before covid? Did they all get jobs working from home? Did they get enough government bailouts to not have to work at all? It is a real mystery.

There is also the issue of the availability of products. That is worse than ever. The head chef can’t even get the food he orders. The same thing is true for the grocery stores. Shelves are still out of may items.

I guess we are just going to have to learn to live differently. I am blessed that I have a place to sleep and food to eat. Inconvenience is a minor thing compared to life altering problems.

Worry

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, anxiety, common sense

One day at a time. Don’t we all wish that we could live that way? To be able to shut our minds to the worries that plague us about the future. My grandmother loved to quote the Bible and always said:

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

If only I could do that I am sure that life would be so much easier. Oh well, something to continue working on.

Grandmother also loved to say this to me: