Category: love

Devotional

by worrylessjourney, posted in kindness, love, peace

April 7 2025

Psalm 85 Verses 8-9

8 I will listen to what God the Lord says;
    he promises peace to his people, his faithful servants—
    but let them not turn to folly.
9 Surely his salvation is near those who fear him,
    that his glory may dwell in our land.

With the world in such a mess I wish everyone would hear words of peace, We must make God very sad with all the violence and hatred that goes on in the world. Some of the worst of it hatred against people of different faiths.

The Hebrew word Shalom means fullness, having everything everything you need to be happy and fulfilled. Frederick Buechner says that “for Jesus peace seem to have meant not the absence of struggle but the presence of love.”

Prayer: Lord God of peace, let us grow in love toward you and our neighbor until wars, hatred and violence cease and shalom reigns. Support us with your Holy Spirit and surround us with your love, now and forever. AMEN

Devotional

by worrylessjourney, posted in beauty, caring, love, the earth

March 23 2025

Psalm 8 Verses 3-4

3 When I look at thy heavens, the work of thy fingers,
    the moon and the stars which thou hast established;
4 what is man that thou art mindful of him,
    and the son of man that thou dost care for him?

You are the Lord of life. What wonderous things you have done. The moon and stars are only a small part of your creation. You have given us so much beauty to behold. Yet we fail to see it. We don’t take time to look around at what God has done for us. God’s hand is in everything from the flowers of the field to the beauty of the ocean. We seldom pay attention. And yet…and yet he does not forget us. We are part of that creation and he remembers us each and every one. I wonder if we deserve so much.

What an amazing gift!

Prayer: Creator God thank you for all the wonders of the earth. Help us to remember that we are just caregivers and not owners. Help us to change our greedy ways. AMEN

Homework: Take some time to look at the beauty around us and thank God.

Devotional

by worrylessjourney, posted in accountable, arrogance, compassion, love

March 12 2025

Psalm 16 5, 9-11

5 Lord, you alone are my portion and my cup;
    you make my lot secure.

9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
    my body also will rest secure,
10 because you will not abandon me to the realm of the dead,
    nor will you let your faithful one see decay.
11 You make known to me the path of life;
    you will fill me with joy in your presence,
    with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

“You make known to me the path of life.” How many times have you showed me the right path. It’s in the Bible. Also your voice speaks in the Christian people around me. But still, I have trouble going the way way or doing the right thing. It’s something we all do. It’s a lot easier to do what we want. Don’t worry about if it’s right or not…just please yourself.

Our culture teaches us to be self sufficient…to be individuals…to make our own decisions. Even our songs agree….remember the one that said “I did it my way?”

It is only when we put God first that our perspective begins to change. Just like being in love and wanting to do everything for the person we love. When God is that person then things change. Suddenly things that seemed OK before are no longer pleasing to us. Pleasing God give us pleasure.

The wonderful thing is that God will not abandon us no matter which path we choose.

Prayer: O God, thank you for loving us and showing us you love over and over. Teach us that when loving you first everything else will fall into place. AMEN

Moments of sadness

by worrylessjourney, posted in love, memories, sadness

While listening to a meditation today I realized that I will most likely never again have the love that there was between my husband and myself. The meditation asked me to focus on someone or something that incorporates love for me. I was sent into sadness as the home I loved dearly and the husband who was the love of my life are gone and I still feel that loss. I imagine that I always will.

Most of the time I don’t dwell on this but once in a while it crops up. Getting older has its challenges. I remind myself that it also is a blessing that I am still here and basically well.

My moment of sadness will pass and the day will move on. It is just part of life.

Life can be challanging

by worrylessjourney, posted in challenging, children, love, sadness

Life is truly challenging. One day everything is fine and the next…who knows? My daughter has ILC breast cancer. This type of breast cancer only shows up in 10% of people and doesn’t usually show up on a mammogram. It is frequently found by feeling a lump. It can also be difficult to treat.

ILC or Lobular breast cancer was only defined as a different cancer in 2012 and now research is being done on how it can best be treated. It has some things in common with lung cancer and a study is being done in Britain using the newest lung cancer med as a treatment.

Enough said about the disease itself. For me the hard part is watching my child go through all of this. Like most people I want to die before my children. I know this is not always possible but I don’t want to watch their pain. I think most parents feel this way.

During my time working as a nurse in pediatrics I saw parents struggling with the pain of having a seriously sick child. Losing a child has to be excruciating.

My daughter has a good prognosis but the journey changes your life forever, No more going blithely through each day. Even after treatment has had good results there is only remission…not cure. Learning to live with this reality is hard. I would take it from her if I could.

She is a positive person and is adjusting to this new world but I am having difficulty. I am a mother and want only the best for my children. Life is not perfect and we all have to live with that reality. Sometimes it is just not easy.

Grief is linked to joy

by worrylessjourney, posted in grief, joy, love, pain

It is difficult to explain what I am experiencing so that it makes sense. My thoughts have been going in many directions lately. I have revisited so many scenes from my past. A video has been running in my head most of the time. Visiting the past is becoming a big part of my grief process. The moments when life was so wonderful pop up and bring me both joy and pain. It reminds me of the idea that when dying we see our life pass before us.

When I lost my husband my focus was on losing his present person. Missing him day to day was front and center. Things to do took precedence and I would wake each day with the nagging feeling that there was something I was forgetting to do. Just the normal routine of living had disappeared.

Now that I am mostly settled in my apartment and have a new daily routine I guess it frees my mind up to explore the things that made our years together so amazing. Now I can bear to immerse myself in the times that bring my grief to the surface. I am more able to endure the pain so that I can also feel the love and joy.

The wave

by worrylessjourney, posted in fear, grief, love, memories

I love C.S. Lewis. His books have inspired me for many years. Today I came across this quote from his book “A Grief Observed.”

I don’t think I had thought about grief in this way but it is so true. I have been washed in fear. Not constantly but over and over. Just when I think it has disappeared it comes again and overwhelms me.

It makes me wonder why fear? What am I afraid of? There is no clear answer. Some things can be seen such as being alone but others are not so obvious. Most of the obvious ones have been dealt with…finances, paperwork, moving, but still the wave comes.

Each time I can feel it tugging at me…wanting to pull me under but then it subsides. Each time it is possible that the pull is less strong but not enough to really feel.

Time will pass. The wave will someday bring memories of love and joy and the fear will recede. I only pray that it continues to lessen with fear and increase with love.

Powerless and more

by worrylessjourney, posted in acceptance, love, overwhelming, sadness

So much has happened in the last few weeks that I have been unable to compose any posts. My mind has been unable to settle enough. After the week of absorbing my daughter’s breast cancer diagnosis Austin was hit by a winter storm that not only shut down power but decimated the city’s ability to provide water. My daughter’s home had power the whole time but still has no water. We are tired, thirsty and smelly. On Wednesday we moved from our apartment that had no power and only moments after getting my husband settled he died from what we believe was a heart attack. We are overwhelmed. This morning I read this poem in Dietrich Bonhoeffer’s “Prayers from Prison” and found great solace from the words of the last two verses of the poem “Joy and Sorrow.” I place them here for your reflection. I know I will read them often.

“What then is Joy? What then is Sorrow?
Time alone can decide between them,
when the immediate poignant happening
lengthens out to continuous wearisome suffering;
when the labored creeping moments of daylight
slowly uncover the fullness of our disaster
Sorrow’s unmistakable features. Then do most of our kind
sated, if only by the monotony
of unrelieved unhappiness,
turn away from the drama, disillusioned,
uncompassionate.

o ye mothers, and loved ones-then, ah, then
comes your hour, the hour for true devotion.
Then your hour comes, ye friends and brothers!
Loyal hearts can change the face of Sorrow,
softly encircle it with love’s most gentle unearthly radiance.”

Love just grows

by worrylessjourney, posted in love, unconditional love

“I have found the paradox. That if you love until it hurts there can be no more hurt. Only more love.” Mother Theresa

To love is a risk. We open ourselves to being hurt. It is scary. Most or us have been hurt at some time and we remember the experience. However, the alternative is to not take the chance and miss out on some of the most wonderful thing in our lives. The truth is that love and loss are part of life. None of us lives forever. Loss is inevitable whether from a death or someone leaving us. Relationships are tricky things and hurts are part of how we learn. The more love we give away the more love we have. Love doesn’t decrease but grows the more we share it.

Don’t be afraid to take a chance. Sharing love is so important that it can’t afford to be missed.

What to do?

by worrylessjourney, posted in hope, kindness, love

I have been reading the most amazing book. It is The Choice by Dr. Edith Eva Eger. She is a psychologist and survivor of Auschwitz. For part of the book she tells her story as a lead in to the things she has learned since and how our choices frame our lives. She begins with this statement: “It took me many decades to discover that I could come at my life with a different question. Not: Why did I live? But: What is mine to do with the life I have been given?”

This is a question that I have struggled with for a long time. At 80 years of age I am not sure that I have the answers yet but I have made progress. Over the years I have realized that most of my purpose is to do this as much as I am able to help others. There are so many who have never had a chance to experience understanding and acceptance which for me are part of loving. Being present for others in a real way is important to me. Covid has made this difficult and it has been hard on me not to be physically present.

I can’t think of anything more important than to be there…present, open and accepting when needed. I wish that everyone could see love and caring as an answer to so many issues infecting our lives. Spread love, hope, kindness and acceptance. It could change everything.