Grief Encompassed Me

Since coming back from my husband’s funeral in June things seemed ok. I was preparing to travel with my daughter’s family on a trip to Canada. I became more and more anxious and time ticked away and a week before the trip had a melt down. I had been crying daily and getting more and more upset.My anxiety had reached a level where I knew I had to do something. Discussion with my doctor’s Nurse Practitioner helped me to see that I wasn’t ready or able to take that trip. Fortunately my daughter had wisely taken out insurance that allowed anyone to cancel for any reason. She completely understood my decision. The minute my decision was made a weight was lifted.

I was really unaware that I would be so affected by the trip to Savannah with the funeral, visiting the city and seeing friends. After his death over 14 months ago I had no idea that it would cause me to react so strongly. I should have remembered that we were together for over 58 years.

SNOW

Today was definitely different in Austin Texas. When I got up it was pouring rain. The next time that I looked out it was snowing…hard! My car was covered with snow. There was about two inches on the hood but the car was cold to begin with. There wasn’t so much on the ground. I went out to clean the snow off and while I was there it was thundering! I have never heard of a thunder snow storm. The snow was very wet but it snowed for most of the day. Toward evening the temperature started to rise and now it is raining again.

It was nice to see pretty snow. It always makes everything look so clean. Tomorrow it will be all gone but it was nice to see it. The roads were not a problem and all slush now. Tomorrow we will be back to normal.

Hope everyone had a good/decent day.