I am better. So how and in what way? It is the strangest thing but it feels as if someone has turned a switch and my mood is more positive. I don’t know if it is getting the right meds or that linked with just the passing of time.

I realize now that I have been crying daily for almost 2+ years. A lot has happened and much change has had to be absorbed but it seems as if life is just moving on. I still cry when struck by memories and things that trigger them but it is more random.

I do feel as if the tears were necessary and cleansing and helped me share the pain in an outward way. I accept that. Now it is time to begin living in a new way. Now if covid will diminish it will be possible to get back to church (which I have missed terribly) and the other activities that I enjoy.

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      1. I don’t have a church here and this is the first time in my life that I have not been to church since November of 2019. I thought I would be going with my daughter and her family but then she was diagnosed with breast cancer and covid was here and she was so at risk that we didn’t go. If I had been to a church I might feel more inclined to brave it. I hope when this current covid rise declines I will be more comfortable.

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      2. I hope so too. Have you been able to take advantage of some online services? It isn’t like the real thing, but at least you are participating in the mass. I am sorry for all you have been through. How is your daughter faring?


  1. Yes, tears are very necessary. Jesus said “blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” (How is He going to “dry every tear” if we haven’t let ourselves cry?) May He wrap His arms around you, comfort you, and make you stronger every day.


  2. I am so glad that you are starting to feel better. I am sure it would be nice to get back to church but don’t rush it. Even those who are fully vaccinated and have had boosters, are susceptible to Omicron and it is not nothing. We have a number of inpatients who were fully vaccinated.

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