I am better. So how and in what way? It is the strangest thing but it feels as if someone has turned a switch and my mood is more positive. I don’t know if it is getting the right meds or that linked with just the passing of time.
I realize now that I have been crying daily for almost 2+ years. A lot has happened and much change has had to be absorbed but it seems as if life is just moving on. I still cry when struck by memories and things that trigger them but it is more random.
I do feel as if the tears were necessary and cleansing and helped me share the pain in an outward way. I accept that. Now it is time to begin living in a new way. Now if covid will diminish it will be possible to get back to church (which I have missed terribly) and the other activities that I enjoy.
worry-less-journey 
Sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling, but happy that you are moving forward
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It has been a challenge but I think just living is. Hope you are doing well.
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Getting by. The chemical sensitivities have been kicking my ass
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I bet so. I have met someone who has the same problems. It is really hard.
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Has it been two years already? Getting back to church will be a tremendous boost.
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I certainly will. I feel totally adrift.
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Is your church still closed for in-person services, or are you just not comfortable yet in attending?
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I don’t have a church here and this is the first time in my life that I have not been to church since November of 2019. I thought I would be going with my daughter and her family but then she was diagnosed with breast cancer and covid was here and she was so at risk that we didn’t go. If I had been to a church I might feel more inclined to brave it. I hope when this current covid rise declines I will be more comfortable.
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I hope so too. Have you been able to take advantage of some online services? It isn’t like the real thing, but at least you are participating in the mass. I am sorry for all you have been through. How is your daughter faring?
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Yes, I have been watching several to get an idea of where to go near me. It helps but it is not the same.
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I agree. There is nothing like the real thing.
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Yes, tears are very necessary. Jesus said “blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.” (How is He going to “dry every tear” if we haven’t let ourselves cry?) May He wrap His arms around you, comfort you, and make you stronger every day.
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Thank you so much and there are times when I feel him here with me.
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A meaningful quote. Hope you see at least one positive thing today. 🙏
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I do feel that things are more positive and my attitude is better.
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I am so glad that you are starting to feel better. I am sure it would be nice to get back to church but don’t rush it. Even those who are fully vaccinated and have had boosters, are susceptible to Omicron and it is not nothing. We have a number of inpatients who were fully vaccinated.
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How great it is that the light is beginning to shine for you. I have been on the exact same trajectory. Feeling lighter and more hopeful too. We have weathered the dark storm 💚
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So true and I pray it keeps going forward.
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