I haven’t written in so long that I will be surprised if anyone remembers me. I seem to function well day to day but can’t spend time thinking. TV has become my escape. I don’t like this version of me. It is up to me to change this. Choices are there I just have to choose well.
My dogs continue to worry me. One is with my daughter for a short while and the other has some health issues that concern the vet. I hope we can pin down the problem soon and that it is minor.
My basset hounds are big dogs with short legs which means that they can pull me down or trip me up easily. I fell earlier this week getting tangled with Crash. (on carpet thank goodness). No major hurt except for muscle pains. I feel blessed that it wasn’t more.
As I look back over this short post I wonder where the real me has gone. I will do better! I am determined!
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I remember. It’s good to read your voice again. Turn off that TV and write more. Your stories matter.
Happy Holidays!
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Thank you so much. Things are getting better and I will write more.
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I always think about how I became this new version. It doesn’t seem like I resemble the person I was before at all x
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So very true. I have had so much happen that I don’t know who I am any more. I am working on learning the new me.
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This will take time. Try to be patient with yourself. Don’t worry, things will get better. Is this the first Christmas since your husband died?
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Yes it is and I know things will be better. There has been so much in the last year it has made it hard to handle but I am making friends and it helps.
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Suzanne, I think of you often and wish you well! There are times when life is like clawing through wet cement. Been there! Somehow I have always made it through to the other side but I feel your pain. 💞 (The strange thing is looking back and wondering what the heck that was all about – but those times must serve a purpose even if we do not see it at the time.)
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You are right. There are times when it all seems too much to bear but I know there is love and hope on the other side.
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So true. 💞
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